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next week is my last examp.. and I’m not ready to carry out all of my subject because i’m not suppose to be in my major hahaha and finally I’m confuse with what role that i choose to huft how pity am I.

be positiv is easy but to pump the positiv think to be out that is so hard to do,oh why why why„ I can’t collate between the importhant side and unimporthant side SHIT !! like i don’t know what the point is„ i overthink about all my friends,time there,someone,consolation,story and many more.. I’m not ready to loss my laught my drown care all my friends because i dont have any comfort except time in school,my time with all my close friends, time with my daddy and internet acces or tv program mybee..

I have to understand, they are in bussy situation because most of them will be continue they study to university and find new people there,new experience and newlife„ and how about me ? because i do not take to continue my study and because the time is not right and be idle til 10 month,i don’t know where i drown my care.. 

i wouldn’t to laught over the program or just internet acces, i just want to real one, and i’m afraid if i loss the one hahaha sound very too much but, i pass my time always alone alone and alone, all the family stay at home only every sunday and from 5.pm only.. can you imagine how boring in my house ? liitle as churchyard so mute and quiet .. like so heavy to let them go„ 

but if i have a magic and miracle to get my position in the airline this year,might be i will not thingking about this too much :D

“How”

Ohhh

I have been searching for your touch

Unlike any touch I’ve ever known

And I never thought about you much

Til I’m broken down and all alone, ohhh

Though I don’t understand the meaning of love

I do not mind if I die trying, ohhh

Took it for granted when you lifted me up

I’m asking for your help

I am going through hell

Afraid nothing can save me but the sound of your voice

You cut out all the noise

And now that I can see mistakes so clearly now

I’d kill if I could take you back

But how?

But how?

I can feel it in my guts

What’s going on with him now

And don’t patronise me with lies

I’m a man, be a woman now, ohhh

I have been bound by the shackles of love

And I don’t mind if I die tied up, ohhh

Took it for granted when you lifted me up

I’m asking for your help

I am going through hell

Afraid nothing can save me but the sound of your voice

You cut out all the noise

And now that I can see mistakes so clearly now

I’d kill if I could take you back

But how?

But how?

But how?

But how?

Ohh yeh

Why must we be so ugly

And please do not think ill of me

Why does the one you love

Become the one who makes you want to cry

Why?

Why?

Why?

(And how?

How?)

But I don’t understand the meaning of love

I do not mind if I die trying

I do not mind if I die trying

I do not mind if I die trying